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Name: Julie
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Birthday: 7/9/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: writing poetry, softball, movies, hanging out with friends, music
Expertise: Secondary Education-English
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
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Member Since:
11/20/2003
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| Hey guys, it's been quite awhile. Once again. I think I just get board of typing online sometimes. Traditional journals are more my style. However, I feel the need to make a post since I know some of you read it. First I would like to apologize to some of my friends that feel ignored. I have been really busy and I have also been focused on my significant other. (which does seem to be something one does with a significant other). The one thing I guess I'm pissed at the most is my friends not backing my decisions and talking behind my back. If this is not you, please move on to the next paragraph. If you think you might be guilty, please read on. If you are my friend, I would hope that you would back my decisons on what I feel is right for me. I have been in a relationship for sometime recently and although i know I relayed that some things were not always the best, I still remained in the relationship. Please have enough respect to honor my decisions that I probably stayed in that relationship for some good reasons. You may not agree or even like said significant other, but if you care about me, you can see past that. I realize that I haven't been the best with balancing my life as of late. I may not have called some of you back or seen some of you at parties, but that doesn't mean I don't care. And I am sorry for not calling. I can tell you I plan on being around more and hopefully being there for you when you need it. Also please note, that things are getting serious in school right now, and partying all the time might not be a priority like it used to be to me, although spaced out right, is right up my alley. Again note, it's one thing to back my decisions to my face and another to tell others you don't back them. Please don't talk behind my back about me or the person that I choose to be in a relationship. Please have enough respect to come to me. I am willing and interested to hear what you have to say. Also, If you are one of those people that I have chosen to confide in and thought that I could trust, and still went on to spread the word, I will find other ways to vent in the future. If you tell one person, they could tell someone, and that person could tell someone, and then everyone knows. I could stand incorrect, maybe come talk to me if you are offended with this post and believe that you have been called out incorrectly.
School has started up again, and things are really getting kinda cool. I'm excited about teaching, I am in my first quarter of cohort. I'm helping TA a class of kids that are trying to get into college but need some extra help with their english skills. It's very cool to explain something to someone that needs help, have them become excited because they finally get something, and then have them use the skills you have taught them. Very rewarding.
I'm conditional for the first time in the sorority. It's a bit odd because I feel disconnected. I was very involved for years and now I'm focusing on education. There is a season for everything. I do plan on returning active in the winter. The season for band is about to end and I kinda excited I have to say. Five long years baby.
Lastly, I feel like I've grown up a lot this year. Probably characteristic for a 5th year preparing to graduate. Doesn't mean I don't still like to party, but does mean that I'm not gonna do this whole drama thing anymore. I'm out. Until next time. | | |
| Once upon a time there were a pair of friends that meant the world to one another. Things were unimaginable at first but then things just kept getting in the way of their friendship leading to a final ressolution. Isn't it sad that these two people are so stubborn and lost that they can't hold on to anything that was once so good? Or maybe it's that neither one has the courage to care for the other? You'd think I'd be over it by now. So begins the long process.
In case you read my last xanga addition and mistakingly took it as me talking about chris, you were wrong. It was not about chris and we are actually doing well. Thanx.
I went to a baseball game tonight in which I actually got hit by a line drive to my seat. I wasn't paying attention and by the time it got to me I looked up, misinterpreted where the ball was going to curve, and it hit me on the shoulder, bounced like five rows up and a little boy got it. =-( some luck huh? at least the reds didn't hit it.
I've had it for the heat. Geeze. Two weeks of camp is so long. I finally got a trampoline. I've been wanting one for as long as I can remember. It was on sale. =-) Well it looks like Dawson's Creek land for me.
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| Well at least there is always that one person who will be there for you. Man, actually looking forward to going to school and band. Just want something to occupy my thoughts more. Too much time to think. Confused about a lot of things. Getting ready to go to sleep somewhat early for me. 12:15. another day of hell at camp tomorrow in the sun. I don't think I'd get by without you MB. Went on a tandem bicycle for the first time a few days ago. Way Cool. =-) A chapter in my life has finally come to an end. Maybe a few final words that were never spoken.
"Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to"
"And how we laughed and how we smiled
And how this heart was yours and mine
and how no dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ran so fast, we ran so free
I had you, and you had me"
I sat here today watching Dawson's Creek and it occured to me that everything just seems to be o.k. when my thoughts are totally consumed in that t.v. show. And although i've taken on the responsibilities of an adult, I've lived in that dream-like state of princes and good conquring evil for as long as I can remember. And don't get me wrong it's gotten me far, but when the dreams always come crashing down, it doesn't make one want to continue. Just rambeling on i suppose. Time for bed.
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| Here, listening to music. Feeling kinda alone. Not really tired. Not really wanting to do anything but talk about my issues. Really talk though, not fake talk. It's so hard to talk about things sometimes. So anyway I played my organ some and sang. That made me feel a little better. Lol. Yeah I'm a nerd. I guess I expect too much out of people and that always ends bad because people always let you down no matter what. It's like a law or something. I guess there is hope for the future. But it sometimes seems like what's the point? I know this is uplifting really. I guess this is close to a real journal entry. I'm tired of bitching with people about stuff that really isn't important but then I'm just so involved and wraped up in it that I can't help it. Ugh. It's just that people change so much. Everything that was so incredibly good never stays the same. I feel like I focus on the wrong things sometimes instead of trying to fix what's right in front of me. I want a cigarette, lol, but I can't bring myself to smoke because it's bad for you. geeze, i really let loose. Don't want to drink alone. So..reading it is. You'd think I had enough this quarter. | | |
| When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we see
No I won't be afraid
No I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
And darling, darling stand by me
Oh, now, now, stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
And the mountain should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry
No I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
And darling, darling stand by me
Oh, stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me, stand by me
Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me
Oh, now, now, stand by me
Oh, stand by me, stand by me, stand by me
Darling, darling stand by me
Stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me | | |
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